It’s true, I am a private person.
I don’t like when people get in my business and I definitely don’t talk about my feelings to anyone other than my husband. I don’t like sharing in groups about what’s “going on” in my life. And when someone comes up to me and asks me how I’m doing, there’s a 90% chance I’ll respond, “I’m fine”.
But the truth is, I’m not really fine right now. I’m struggling. Yes, I trust God, but it isn’t easy most days.
It’s hard to speak the words when they are so heavy in my heart. It’s difficult to talk when I am on the verge of tears all the time. My mind is running in one direction as I convince myself to look forward and not dwell on the current unfortunate news and therefore the words literally cannot come out of my mouth.
So why share my story?
That’s a good question and I’m not sure what the answer is quite yet. But I do know that ever since I started writing my story on paper, I felt this sense of relief, comfort, and peace. My hope is that my story can help someone else who is living the same sad reality as me. My prayer is this simple blog can remind other women struggling with infertility that they are not alone. My prayer is God may use this blog to remind all women that the Lord is faithful even in the difficult times.
No one talks about infertility while going through it. In fact, I bet many of you know someone who has or is currently struggling with infertility. I have come to realize that people are more willing to open up after their trial, when the pregnancy test shows two lines, when the baby name is picked out, and when they are rocking their bundle of joy to bed.
No one likes to talk about their storm when they are facing it. We like success stories. We like the happily ever after. However, I am in the storm. I’m still waiting on my baby. The trial is still ahead of me, and the journey is my present life. I want to write about and share with you the good, the bad, and the ugly as I am living through it now. This blog will be a place to read about my journey with infertility, including stories on the past few years and my current situation.
Friends, I invite you to walk this journey with me. Read my stories so you may understand what someone who is dealing with infertility is feeling. Share my stories with someone you know who is suffering from the same sadness as me so that they may find comfort in knowing they are not alone.
Pray with me. I TRUST in Him to provide and I want to celebrate with YOU as the many blessings are revealed.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. The you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and when you seek me with all your heart.” – Jeremiah 29:11